In Search of Black Assassins


Alicia Keys giving the victory to LUCIFER; I confess that I had hoped and prayed that Alicia Keys would be a refreshing breath of air to young brothers and sisters of the hip hop generation. She could actually sing. She was remarkably musically trained and gifted. I thought that she was independently minded and not afraid to speak truth to power especially when she spoke out against Ganstra Rap being a tool of genocide for Black males.[1]

She added that, in her opinion, the feud between rappers Tupac Shakur and Notorious B.I.G. was fueled “by the government and the media, to stop another great black leader from existing”. Alicia expressed her desire to write more political songs in the future and added that if leaders such as Black Panther co-founder and Huey Newton “had the outlets our musicians have today, it’d be…

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Funeral Blues by W. H. Auden

AKA “That poem from Four Weddings and A Funeral”. I was watching it on the telly awhile ago and cried again when the poem was recited.

Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

Dark Cabaret


Cabaret has been in existence since the turn of the 20th century. It was clumped together with Burlesque and Vaudeville which were notorious for being risque back then. Sadly, these forms of musical entertainment died down when the world wars ended.

With the threat of another world war looming, the Cabaret resurfaced in the late 70’s in a different and more sinister form – Dark Cabaret. It became a sub-genre of goth music and was dabbled into by the likes of Marc Almond, The Virgin Prunes, Christian Death, Sex Gang Children, Lydia Lunch and Jill Tracy all through the 80’s and 90’s.

The present metamorphosis of Dark Cabaret is now more distinct. Led by Rasputina, The Dresden Dolls, Katzenjammer Kabarett, Revue Noir and other burgeoning artists, the cabaret has undergone a revival complete with stylized shows reminiscent of burlesque shows at the turn of the century. Characterized by low vocals and a centerpiece instrument such as a cello, piano, or violin.

Projekt Records has come up with a compilation CD in honor of Cabaret’s new era. It is a must-buy and I highly recommend it. While you’re at it, grab copies of CDs by The Dresden Dolls and Katzenjammer Kabarett and try to listen to distant echoes of the original cabaret we almost lost.


Are you aware that there exists a group who supports an individual's freedom to choose to kill him/herself? If you're not, you haven't heard about alt.suicide.bus.stop or The two groups are inter-related but I'll write more about them later.

Suicide is frowned upon by civilized society. Heck, there are still Roman Catholics who don't allow proper burials for those who died from committing suicide. Killing of self is seen as a sign of weakness, a sin, a forbidden act but society should also look at the point of view of the person who wants to do it. Ponder on the why's inside the person's mind. Why does he want to die? What brought it about?

Basically, the two alt.suicide groups want to help those who are considering suicide by teaching them alternative philosophies, suicide methods, debates on its morality, among other things and by doing so, giving the present of a guilt-free death if a person ends up committing the act.

To learn more about this alternative view on suicide, visit

I miss sex

French TicklerMy mother still thinks I’m a virgin. Hello! I’m almost 29 years old. I even had a late start. I lost my virginity when I was 20. That was with my first and only boyfriend whom I broke up with after more than a year. Yadda yadda yadda. I’m not here to talk about him. I want to talk about sex.

Sex with B was fun. We were both virgins so we were careful because we didn’t really know what to do. I’m quite a selfish lover. I insist that the man pleasures me first and I will pleasure him if I feel like it.

We had sex in inappropriate places. Picture this, my mom, sister, me, and the ex all in one room. Mom is sleeping soundly, sister is asleep barely. Horny me teases the ex and we end up having sex then and there. Good thing my mom is a sound sleeper but I have a feeling that my sister woke up. Oh well.

We had sex almost all over the house. My room, my mom’s room, the living room, and the bathroom. When we went out of town with my family, same thing. Everyone sleeping in one room and our hands stimulating each other’s organs. I’m getting horny just writing about this.

I miss having sex. I haven’t had sex for almost 6 years. I’m not appealing to guys and I’m anti-social so that doesn’t help of course. Oh, I had sex with other men besides the ex but they were just one night stands and wasn’t satisfying at all. I’m tired of one night stands because that’s just not my thing. I want someone (girl or guy) who knows how to pleasure me and she/he wouldn’t care about my size. If you’re interested, you know where to write me. In the meantime, at least I have my fingers and my pillows.

Grim Rides

Did you know that in San Francisco, there's a group of friends who all own funeral cars. That's right! Funeral cars. Hearses. Check out Grim Rides Funeral Car Club and learn more about the members and the cars they have. Don't miss Rebeca Caldwell's Carthedral. It's amazing! Here's a preview of the Carthedral.


The Death Clock

The death clock is just an ordinary site which computes the date of your death based on your date of birth, sex, smoking habits, and body mass index (BMI). You get to choose between the ff modes: normal, pessimistic, sadistic, and optimistic.

I got March 16, 2037 based on normal mode, January 1, 2019 on pessimistic, and March 16, 2007 on sadistic. I didn't bother with optimistic mode.